As a group of old high school friends wander through San Francisco on Halloween night, two of them are forced to confront their unspoken sexual history.
Performance Anxiety (2012)
Director: Gabriel Fleming
Writer: Gabriel Fleming
County: USA
Language: English
Gernre: Drama
Duration: 74 min
Year: 2019
Stars: Ian Scott McGregor, Lucas Alifano, Lindsay Benner
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As a group of old high school friends wander through San Francisco on Halloween night, two of them are forced to confront their unspoken sexual history.
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Writer/Director Gabriel Fleming gives us a trio of former high school mates (plus one more who’s a tagalong or everyman, perhaps representing we viewers). They reconnect on a current-day Halloween night in a search for fun and drugs (and old feelings). While doing so they relive a high school period visit to Northern California’s Lost Coast (yes, there is such a place—just look for yourself on Wikipedia). Making up our little trio we have gay Mark and “straight” (ha, ha, ha) Jasper, both in the company of fag-hag-DON’T-wannabe, Lily, who would give just about anything to convert our Mark to her hetero lifestyle. Howsomever, little Markey-Mark would love nothing better than to make a reticent (ha, ha, ha) Jasper forget that he (J) is trying way too hard (oh, you don’t see it either) to “be straight.” Yes, Mark’s in love, and his feelings for Jasper are about to do him in. On the other side of this twosome coin, we have big, confused Jasper who spends part of his time, at various stages of the film, writing an email to fiancée (yes, I did say fiancée), Wendy. Therein he tries to explain the “small mistake” he made in consorting with Mark during their high school days (although, however will he explain his similar behavior during the group’s latest seashore visit).
In his words to Wendy he’s very adamant that his past behavior means nothing now (even tho we viewers are witnesses during this second visit to the Lost Coast, as Jasper both kisses and masturbates Mark). And while to us actions are stronger than words, perhaps it’s his cleaning his cum-covered hand with area sand which throws Mark into an emotional downspin. So, here we are at film’s end, seeing group members go their way, and we’re left with a tearful Jasper wondering what the hell his orientation really is. BUT at the same time we do get to listen in as he finishes up his “forgive me—it meant nothing” email to an innocently unknowing Wendy. Wait….wait, there’s more. Thanks to our director in his film’s very last frame, who should we see smiling up at us while comfortably reading on a couch, but the sweet looking young woman, herself…..completely unaware that life is about to be ruined by a man who cannot admit what he wants and who he really is.
